[ It was a combination of a large amount of apathy, flavored with a dash of nihilism. He cared for perhaps the first few hundred years or so, but that was beaten out of him. If he couldn't die, he'd live to spite everyone and throw his continued existence in their (sometimes metaphorical) faces. ]

ALASTAIR is using us, but I refuse to call them an agent of fate. [ It's the using part that he seems to have the most trouble with. ] There is enough chaos in all of the universes to avoid such prescribed paths.