[ the only thing she would like to admit to now, even though in her own mind, much earlier, she had already come to terms with the fact she and sieglinde may never actually become the friends she would have liked them to be. that for, whatever reason, the younger girl prefers this distance, this distance with her, and olivia has spent long enough dwelling on her own shortcomings to come to any one reason, certain instead it is a multitude of them.
but such things she cannot say now, for what would be the point in them? she could protest, could insist she would like to remain as disciple to sieglinde's master, but what shame does she risk in that sort of groveling? what more can she stand to lose in sieglinde's eyes? ]
But you speak as if you were saying good-bye, [ she says instead, attempting to affect her own voice with laughter, to try and lighten the situation. ]
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[ the only thing she would like to admit to now, even though in her own mind, much earlier, she had already come to terms with the fact she and sieglinde may never actually become the friends she would have liked them to be. that for, whatever reason, the younger girl prefers this distance, this distance with her, and olivia has spent long enough dwelling on her own shortcomings to come to any one reason, certain instead it is a multitude of them.
but such things she cannot say now, for what would be the point in them? she could protest, could insist she would like to remain as disciple to sieglinde's master, but what shame does she risk in that sort of groveling? what more can she stand to lose in sieglinde's eyes? ]
But you speak as if you were saying good-bye, [ she says instead, attempting to affect her own voice with laughter, to try and lighten the situation. ]