[Does he want her to do that again? He's not sure. Some pre-programmed response chastises him for wanting it. You have compassion for her, a scolding growl that might have made him flinch were his mind not already racing a mile a minute.
Even in this, he feels like something of a disappointment -- he has yet to relinquish his hold on her, or to act on it in any fashion. But the more he tries to find some sort of proper follow up, the more he comes up empty, and the worse he feels. She says she won't give up, she's even sought to show him -- and yet...
He knows at least one thing -- distance is not what he wants. Not anymore, not right now. Awkwardly, he pulls her back toward him, enveloping her smaller shoulders with his large gangly arms. While he is too lost to return the kiss she presented him with, he finds himself clinging to her as if she might slip away.
There is an underlying fear there, but one that he accepts rather than one that comes upon him suddenly. A fear that was always there, but that he stops shying from.
The silence stays. That piece that eats at him thinks him a fool for chasing that validation in her would no doubt rear its head when proven correct, but its been a stressful month. And yes -- he is weak, hiding his face over her shoulder so she can't see how desperate he is too.]
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Even in this, he feels like something of a disappointment -- he has yet to relinquish his hold on her, or to act on it in any fashion. But the more he tries to find some sort of proper follow up, the more he comes up empty, and the worse he feels. She says she won't give up, she's even sought to show him -- and yet...
He knows at least one thing -- distance is not what he wants. Not anymore, not right now. Awkwardly, he pulls her back toward him, enveloping her smaller shoulders with his large gangly arms. While he is too lost to return the kiss she presented him with, he finds himself clinging to her as if she might slip away.
There is an underlying fear there, but one that he accepts rather than one that comes upon him suddenly. A fear that was always there, but that he stops shying from.
The silence stays. That piece that eats at him thinks him a fool for chasing that validation in her would no doubt rear its head when proven correct, but its been a stressful month. And yes -- he is weak, hiding his face over her shoulder so she can't see how desperate he is too.]