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nerd baby ([personal profile] selfimage) wrote in [community profile] epidemiology2017-01-08 04:21 pm

OPEN.

CHARACTERS: Loki & open!
DATE: January catch-all, including the party.
WARNINGS: There's some dirty implications and a naked Loki, so tread carefully.
SUMMARY: Celebration, pranks, fireworks, devious planning, milkshakes, drama, fuzzy handcuffs and casual invasions of privacy. The usual.


Loki doesn't have a routine. In fact, he does his best to defy all possibility of routine. There are days that he sleeps late, other days that he doesn't sleep at all, mingling in the library as if somehow the deepest hour will reveal hidden texts to him. There are midnight snacks in the kitchen, mischief to be had for those lucky few who come across him in his more disobedient moods, and diving into the recesses of the photo app recently added to the jewelcomm.

The new year came like the one before it, the celebration welcome as Loki stretched himself in what felt like a new beginning. Everything had changed, but in name only. Lucky that's where it counted. A few years ago he had a party for the Young Avengers, an attempt at an apology for exploiting their trust after pulling the strings that lead to a very sore confession. If he had stayed, they would most likely trust him again, even now. He hadn't stayed; he had left in favor of a new start.

"Happy New Year, Loki," he says with a hint of a smile, a mutter into his glass beneath the loud shrieks and pops of fireworks.


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[personal profile] dailydouble 2017-01-14 12:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Two days was nothing to him. It was barely enough time for even a mortal to grow wan at the absence of a lover, much less a god. Ahad was in no danger, and would likely not be for some time.

Nevertheless, he still found himself disquieted at the lack of contact between the two of them. It likely rested more with their unfinished business than a physical need, but it left him wandering the halls instead of seeking succor. Avoidance was easier, especially when Loki did not look for him.

It was only after he had bent enough to search out Dany's touch that he found himself returning to their room. Nothing is resolved by silence and everything seemed to weigh on him.

Knowing that Loki can likely feel his approach, Ahad simply enters without announcing himself. He'll pause just over the threshold to take in Loki's pose, then allow the door to close behind him. ]


If your intent was to read, that seems counterproductive.
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[personal profile] dailydouble 2017-01-15 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ahad raises one of his eyebrows, as he considers Loki. It's at the perfect height to indicate that someone is being mocked, although who is entirely up in the air. ]

If that was intended to be a pointed comment, I cannot tell if you're referring to yourself or to me.

[ There's also the option of it being both... ]
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[personal profile] dailydouble 2017-01-15 02:08 pm (UTC)(link)
That does not make it less pointed.

[ There's no heat in his words. It's intended as more of an observation than a judgement.

While he does glance over toward whatever wine they've stored in their room, Ahad seems to decide that forgoing it may be the better plan. He'll approach Loki instead, looming over him a moment before holding out a hand. ]
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[personal profile] dailydouble 2017-01-15 02:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ As soon as Loki takes his hand, Ahad will pull him up from the chair. There's a moment of uncertainty after that, as if he can't entirely decide what to do with Loki now that he has him. Loki isn't the only one who's somewhat out of his element.

What Ahad actually does is press closer, trapping their hands between them. He'll allow his head to drop to the curve of Loki's shoulder, giving himself a moment to sink back into the comfort of physical contact. This was never a conversation that would happen without touch. ]


I take back what I said before. You're even more ridiculous than I could have possibly imagined.
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[personal profile] dailydouble 2017-01-15 03:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[ At the question, Ahad pauses for a handful of beats and then presses a kiss against Loki's neck. It's not much of a reply, but it does indicate that his thoughts here are not entirely negative. ]

If I was, I am no longer. Why did you do it?
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[personal profile] dailydouble 2017-01-15 10:35 pm (UTC)(link)
You have my trust already. But I do not always understand you.

[ Ahad realizes it's true, but only in the moment he says it. It's not something he's put direct thought into, but more acted upon for quite some time now. ]

Do you trust yourself around me?
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[personal profile] dailydouble 2017-01-16 02:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's not a comfortable admission, by any means. Ahad is silent for a few beats, before he lifts his head so that they can make eye contact. Something about responding to this seems to require it. ]

Perhaps the better question is...do you trust me?
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[personal profile] dailydouble 2017-01-17 11:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He's disquieted enough to pull back and stand, as if he needs to put some space between them. He moves only far enough to lean against the opposite wall, using the time to collect himself. ]

Then trust me to know my own needs and desires. Otherwise, we do nothing but hurt each other.
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[personal profile] dailydouble 2017-01-19 01:16 am (UTC)(link)
It was never about you. Not in the way you seem to think.

[ It's tempting, to leave it at that. There's a certain part of Ahad that rebels against revealing more of himself to anyone, no matter how close they've grown. It's a struggle against his own instincts, to be as open as this demands. ]

I find jealousy uncomfortable, because it reminds me of being controlled. I have spent too much of my life as a slave. [ He'll blink, then quirk his lips in a terrible sort of smile. ] I am barely comfortable in this body, which is so much like his that I wonder at us no longer sharing it...

[ he falls silent, staring off into a distance only he can see. ]
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[personal profile] dailydouble 2017-01-19 10:10 pm (UTC)(link)
That sounds very pretty.

[ Loki is always good at that. But right now, Ahad feels it constraining them instead of opening anything. It's not Loki's sincerity that he questions, but why they bother with this at all. ]

There is no fight here. I am free, because I have the ability to choose who I give myself to. [ He'll shift against the wall, finally raising his head enough to meet Loki's eyes again. ] You want me to be without constraint? Then leave, knowing that it will likely cripple me.

[ there's a pause here, but Ahad does not break eye contact. ] I did not enter this ignorant of what it would mean.
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[personal profile] dailydouble 2017-01-21 02:23 pm (UTC)(link)
You have no idea what you did, do you?

[ It's not quite a revelation, but it answers a question Ahad had not even known he had. Sometimes, Ahad forgets how young Loki is.

He'll push off the wall and move back toward Loki. It's a cautious move, but perhaps not entirely for Loki's sake. If Loki doesn't shift, Ahad will sit next to him again, allowing his side to press against Loki's. ]


Don't be insulting. [ There's a certain dry humor to his words, even if it is barely there. ] I have excellent taste and would not choose someone unworthy.
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[personal profile] dailydouble 2017-01-22 02:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Try to avoid pushing me away, because you believe that's what I want.

[ It's not the entire issue, but it's a large part of it. They should address the rest of it, but Ahad is uncertain if he wishes to. Even if it will disappoint Dany, if they go no further than this.

To soften the blow of his words somewhat, Ahad will bring a hand up to tangle in Loki's hair. The contact seems to strengthen both of them. ]

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