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- accord (drakengard 3),
- ahad (the inheritance trilogy),
- alice liddell (american mcgee's alice),
- anna kushina (k),
- aqua (kingdom hearts),
- ban (the seven deadly sins),
- bolin (legend of korra),
- clarke griffin (the 100),
- dean winchester (supernatural),
- eren jaeger (attack on titan),
- fai (tsubasa reservoir chronicle),
- fenris (dragon age),
- frey (rune factory 4),
- gilgamesh (fate/),
- gintoki sakata (gintama),
- graham humbert (once upon a time),
- harry potter (harry potter),
- hellboy (hellboy/bprd),
- honey lemon (big hero 6),
- joshua (kingdom hearts),
- julius visconti (god eater 2 rage burst),
- kashuu kiyomitsu (touken ranbu),
- khisanth (dragonlance),
- kida (atlantis),
- kindred (league of legends),
- korra (legend of korra),
- kurogane (tsubasa reservoir chronicle),
- lalli hotakainen (ssss),
- levi (attack on titan),
- lief (deltora quest),
- loki (marvel comics),
- malia tate (teen wolf),
- masamune date (sengoku basara),
- merlin (merlin),
- mikasa ackerman (attack on titan),
- mikazuki munechika (touken ranbu),
- muneshige tachibana (sengoku basara),
- nico yazawa (love live!),
- obi (akagami no shirayukihime),
- one (brother) (drakengard 3),
- pearl (steven universe),
- phoenix wright (ace attorney),
- raidou kuzunoha xiv (smt),
- ranmaru (good luck girl!),
- regina mills (once upon a time),
- riku (kingdom hearts),
- riza hawkeye (fullmetal alchemist),
- robbie reyes (marvel comics),
- sakura kinomoto (cardcaptor sakura),
- sieglinde sullivan (black butler),
- steven quartz universe (steven universe),
- tony (toward the terra),
- ushahin dreamspinner (the sundering)
OPEN ★ ARRIVAL LOG
ARRIVALS ( OCT 2 ) ![]() You're thrown into darkness. You taste copper and, for a moment, your ears won't stop ringing. All common side-effects of portal travel. The entire crew arrives just beyond the city gates, so you might also be feeling a little bit claustrophobic. We appreciate your help at Anwick. The wyrmlings will live to grow up and bring about the world's natural end. Thank you. Afterwards, the crew will be given an abridged version of this, then told to familiarize themselves with the city and natives, report all information gathered back to ALASTAIR, and wait for further instruction. |
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[Someone seemed to get it. Ban was eager to accept his punishments--even if they were ones he may not have deserved. The sin of letting Elaine die in exchange for immortality was enough that he would relentlessly torture himself with.
Prison or servitude at his own behest--he didn't mind either.
Drinking to run away, going to prison to harm himself and allowing the world to push him around seemed like fair venues to Ban. Though, given Harry's response, he imagined the young man would object.]
Me, I haven't got the right to object. I'm just some lousy criminal turned hero because the right person said the right thing to the right king~. I'll take fun where I can get it.
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As far as anyone knows here, you aren't a criminal. You're just someone brought here to try to stop the conflict. Do you really think that's something you should find fun in? [He finishes what he's saying by leveling his gaze at Ban, looking at him seriously.]
Because it sounds like you have a chance to make a choice for yourself now, rather than resigning yourself to something that no one even knows a thing about. [Though he's saying this, he doesn't expect to be listened to in the least.
But it was worth a shot.]
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This was what a good person acted like, he supposed.
Though, Ban didn't know Harry and likewise. The only response he could cook up at the moment was one he had told himself countless times.]
It'll always be the same. [With a smile that betrayed itself, Ban cemented his stance.]
No matter where I go. No matter what I do... Let me explain somethin' to you, brat. A real sin can't get erased no matter what you do.
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He considers adding more, to make it seem like he doesn't care all the same, but he knows that will cut into what he's said previously. No, he decides to stand by the original statement, and he looks at him defiantly.]
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Despite that, Ban couldn't do a thing but disagree.]
Kid, you'll learn eventually--there're people who're born as nothin' and never become anythin' good. Most folks turn out rotten even when they've got qualities most folks only dream of havin'.
[Propping his chin with his palm, Ban grinned lazily.]
Spend your time helpin' good folks, instead.
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So, as a result, he doubts that Ban is anything like that.
He snorts and gives a shake of his head.]
Answer me this, then. Are you capable of love? [It's an odd sticking point, but he doesn't seem like the type who hurts because he knows nothing good. He just sees himself as a bad apple, an irredeemable type, but he doesn't even come close to reminding Harry of Voldemort of all people.
He thinks that is likely for a reason.]
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He was just as certain that he would happily die for her.
The thought was terrifying and Ban knew as much. What I would do for Elaine could turn me into a war criminal overnight.]
Love brings out the best and worst of us, after all~.
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And because I do, I won't ever believe the worst of you. The worst person I ever met wasn't capable of love. All he knew was fear. Fear of dying. Fear of not having power. He couldn't find it in him to feel anything good, and power was the only thing that helped him feel fulfilled. [If that could even be what it was. He bows his head forward momentarily.]
You're nothing like him. Which is a very good thing. He wasn't terribly fond of me. [Because Harry can be a proper pain in the ass. He made a good adversary for someone like Voldemort.]
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Though Harry had him curious, Ban knew better than to ask stupid questions to disturb the young man. Some questions didn't need answering right away.]
You say he ain't capable of love? Sounds like the guy love himself a lot~.
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He may have been obsessed with himself, but if he truly loved himself, he wouldn't have let that happen.
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Ban remembered what humanity had done to him. It starved him, beat him near to death, punched his gut when he was happy and stomped on him when he was at his worst. There was no reason for him to think humanity was all that worthwhile.
The three human beings he actually loved were rare cases. Knowing nothing of Meliodas' and Zhivago's real lineage, he thought of his captain and adoptive father as oddities that didn't obey human standards. Among everyone else, there was his little sister--someone who died before she even had her chance.
In his heart, Ban saw humanity as a farce. The only man he loved before Meliodas had suggested to never trust humans and that man disappeared, likely scared off by Ban's youthful impulsiveness and stupidity. His own humanity failed him.
What Harry described didn't seem monstrous at all.]
...Heh. Brat. To meeeee, cept the nose--that guy sounds like the perfect picture a' humanity~.
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But I don't really want to discuss this any further. Maybe you don't understand. [No, he definitely thinks he doesn't understand. And it's not Harry's place to change his mind.
It doesn't really matter here, anyway, and he isn't going to start thinking Ban is anything like Voldemort. (But he is more predisposed to change his mind on that than he was before.)]
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[For all that Harry seemed to hate this guy, Ban was sure he had his reasons. Fear, desperation, anger, greed--they were assets of humanity. Elaine asked him why people were greedy and he knew exactly why. 'Sins' weren't necessarily errors of humanity alone, but they were certainly perpetrated the best by humans.
Though, it didn't mean that Ban approved of this mentality. Above all else, he realized humans were the worst the world had to offer.]
The best piece of advice I ever got in my life.
[He leaned forward, grinning from cheek to cheek.] Don't trust human beings.
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He might even encourage it.]
You'll understand if I don't take that advice to heart, being a human being myself, [he shoots back, straightening up his posture at the same time to try to appear composed.
He doesn't appear composed, but it's all just to try, at any rate.]
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He had, after all, tried to give Ban encouragement to feel better and they weren't even friends--or, that involved as acquaintances.]
Consider it. [Experience was the worst teacher. It was smart, but it was ruthless.]
Don't let your kindness burn you.
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It makes sense in Harry's mind, anyway.]
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[From the beginning, Ban had thought it was possible, but his world had argued with him at every turn. From a young age, he decided the world could be as cruel as it had to be. He believed Zhivago when he said humans were bad news. Even as a human, he was struck with the same curse.]
For me, it's just whether or not I hate someone less than others. I won't make excuses for myself--I'll just do as I please. I'm not worth trustin', either.