『伊達政宗』ᴅᴀᴛᴇ "LET ME DO IT KOJURO" ᴍᴀsᴀᴍᴜɴᴇ (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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epidemiology2015-12-05 10:12 pm
inroad) wrote in epidemiology2015-12-05 10:12 pm
your mind's still trapped in twilight
CHARACTERS: Date Masamune & those that I owe a prompt to for this/discussed with.
DATE: after jail-breakout and dispersing
WARNINGS: will update if needed but probably not. He's just delirious from sickness .
SUMMARY: basically his escaping the playpen and then getting his five year-old ass dragged back to the doctor, anyway.
[ he tells himself he must have done this on purpose but he doesn't remember anything to back that claim of his up. He crawls out of the river bed, choking and coughing and gagging until it turns into involuntary retching of blood and bile. All that does is worsen his confused state and his inability to properly focus. This shouldn't be happening, he repeats over and over. His heart is racing as if he just ran here rather than arrived by horse and the chest pain he experiences is little better.
It was better to get out of there if this is the reality of his state, though, he's sure. The unfortunate thing is that it makes it a hell of a lot harder to figure out what to do next. Masamune has no plans on dying—but he wouldn't be responsible for anyone else's death, either, and in the chaos it was a rather rash decision that had no time to be considered. He made a promise to someone to survive (to whom he can't remember right now how stupid of him to forget a face and a name) but everything is suddenly such a mess now that the fight or flight response has drained from him. His condition seemed to deteriorate rapidly upon leaving (or was he the only one that hadn't noticed because it took too much concentration to keep steady?)
Now even breathing, no matter how hard he tries to calm it, is like gasping for air as the world around him spins. Maybe he can just lie here and rest for a few moments? Maybe he is far enough away from whatever he's running from that he can pull himself back together.
He buries his head in his arms, collapsing fully against the bank and tries to calm himself. It only results in a shudder from him despite his best efforts and he feels his horse's snout nudge against his head for a response but he doesn't react. How is his horse here, anyway? Is this real? He wants to tell it to find Kojuro. Kojuro will know what to do.
(He's lost in his own head in sickness, but he already knows that wherever he is, Kojuro is not. Kojuro is missing or has never been here to begin with. Masamune is alone. He's really absolutely alone. Illness like this is the worst because it renders the victim helpless and like a child and he's far too easily lost in fears that stalk him in his very own shadow, relentlessly seeking to plague him once a fracture is found.)
don't look down on me. don't reject me. don't leave me. don't hate me.
don't leave me like her. don't hate me like her.
He believes he merely thinks what he actually says now as he tries to lift himself upon the ground, doubtful and uncertain of himself as much as anyone else that looks on would be. ]
Kojuro, I need you. [ he grits his teeth, fingers curling and sinking into the mud. He hates this. All he can remember is being sick as a child, right now, and it's this same terrifying feeling that brought on all his problems from the start. Why does it have to always ruin everything? Why is Kojuro— ] Why are you somewhere I can't reach...?
DATE: after jail-breakout and dispersing
WARNINGS: will update if needed but probably not. He's just delirious from sickness .
SUMMARY: basically his escaping the playpen and then getting his five year-old ass dragged back to the doctor, anyway.
[ he tells himself he must have done this on purpose but he doesn't remember anything to back that claim of his up. He crawls out of the river bed, choking and coughing and gagging until it turns into involuntary retching of blood and bile. All that does is worsen his confused state and his inability to properly focus. This shouldn't be happening, he repeats over and over. His heart is racing as if he just ran here rather than arrived by horse and the chest pain he experiences is little better.
It was better to get out of there if this is the reality of his state, though, he's sure. The unfortunate thing is that it makes it a hell of a lot harder to figure out what to do next. Masamune has no plans on dying—but he wouldn't be responsible for anyone else's death, either, and in the chaos it was a rather rash decision that had no time to be considered. He made a promise to someone to survive (to whom he can't remember right now how stupid of him to forget a face and a name) but everything is suddenly such a mess now that the fight or flight response has drained from him. His condition seemed to deteriorate rapidly upon leaving (or was he the only one that hadn't noticed because it took too much concentration to keep steady?)
Now even breathing, no matter how hard he tries to calm it, is like gasping for air as the world around him spins. Maybe he can just lie here and rest for a few moments? Maybe he is far enough away from whatever he's running from that he can pull himself back together.
He buries his head in his arms, collapsing fully against the bank and tries to calm himself. It only results in a shudder from him despite his best efforts and he feels his horse's snout nudge against his head for a response but he doesn't react. How is his horse here, anyway? Is this real? He wants to tell it to find Kojuro. Kojuro will know what to do.
(He's lost in his own head in sickness, but he already knows that wherever he is, Kojuro is not. Kojuro is missing or has never been here to begin with. Masamune is alone. He's really absolutely alone. Illness like this is the worst because it renders the victim helpless and like a child and he's far too easily lost in fears that stalk him in his very own shadow, relentlessly seeking to plague him once a fracture is found.)
don't look down on me. don't reject me. don't leave me. don't hate me.
don't leave me like her. don't hate me like her.
He believes he merely thinks what he actually says now as he tries to lift himself upon the ground, doubtful and uncertain of himself as much as anyone else that looks on would be. ]
Kojuro, I need you. [ he grits his teeth, fingers curling and sinking into the mud. He hates this. All he can remember is being sick as a child, right now, and it's this same terrifying feeling that brought on all his problems from the start. Why does it have to always ruin everything? Why is Kojuro— ] Why are you somewhere I can't reach...?
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You have an issue with taking advice.
[ That is literally the only reason he's in trouble right now. ]
'Waving his dick around', as you put it, is what Gilgamesh does. In every sense of the term. That is the privilege his power gives him, and challenging him blind is a fool's errand.
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However... with the forward and straight to the point reasoning being do similar to how Kojuro would scold him before kicking his ass if all else failed.
Okay, time to maybe drop his mouthy front a little. Masamune is actually well aware that even if things were different in strength and power... Between that ending meeting of theirs and the conversation heading to the network... Gilgamesh doesn't even need to be more powerful to turn the tables on Masamune if he starts with that possession shit. ]
I thought if I came and fought with you it'd give me a better idea of his strength from the little I've seen. But... that's not the lesson I need at the moment, I think.
I actually was hoping you could explain what I did to get in this mess other than 'get his attention' so I could fix it. I don't want to actually fight him, he saw through me and snapped the only thing I had that gave me a chance to really fight with him. So waving him off now would be a good thing to me rather than actively looking for a fight.
I don't get how to defeat someone I'm fighting with when their goal is specifically me, and not in an assassination type way. Killing is easy to react but here I don't know the desire to grab onto to really get into the fight. I've gotten what I wanted from him and he has made that clear. If he does something stupid I can directly act to it's different. But if it's just aimed at me, I'll lose every time.
[ hi I don't know how to protect myself from predators on the street should I apply for a M.A.C.E license pls advise. ]
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It's good that Masamune drops the front because, if he hadn't, Archer would have taken him to task over it. He doesn't have time for excuses, is far too painfully self-aware to tolerate it in others, which is why he is all about beating sense into people who need it.
It's true that Masamune has a true dilemma on his hands, and at this stage, he may very well be in too deep to get out. That's the danger of playing with forces you don't entirely understand -- which isn't his fault, per se, but it is what it is.
His answer, like every other thus far, is frank. ]
Fighting me would give you a better idea of what to expect from him in an actual battle.
[ The Gate is more all-encompassing in its scope, but Archer possesses a sizable arsenal of his own. It is good, however, that Masamune identifies this isn't the lesson he needs, at the moment. ]
Considering I only recently arrived, I couldn't tell you exactly what you did to draw such attention, except you got too close to a man whose very legend is a tale of alienation from the world around him.
[ For all of Gilgamesh's grand exploits, that was ultimately how his story ended. A man who possessed every material treasure of the world, and yet lost the two things which mattered to him most -- his only friend and his life. ]
Though his behavior is often distasteful, he is also charismatic. He draws others to his person even as he repulses them. If you weren't drawn to him in some way, his attention wouldn't affect you the way it does.
The best advice I can give you is to withdraw. Until you're capable of brushing it off and handling your emotions better than you are, your defeat will be assured every time.
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Last time I met with him in person it ended with him telling me he intended to pursue me until I was his. [ just talking about this is flustering Masamune and is not manly in his opinion and so uncool but he can pretend this is just about him. He has to know to be able to keep Sieglinde apart from it, too. ] Will withdrawing be enough?
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You aren't the first he's made such overtures to.
[ In fact, one of the other victims of such unwanted affections is present and accounted for. He doesn't know that Saber would appreciate having her handle given out, though. ]
For the time being, yes. You've already asked for a week; take the time to decide how you truly view him, make up your mind, and rid yourself of whatever doubts or confusion you have where he's concerned.
He will keep his word and pursue you, but to be on even footing, you need to take back the ground you've lost.
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But, he isn't too surprised. It was what was bothering him and at least it's a clear answer. ]
How do I do that? Just two days ago... two days ago everything was different. I still don't know what happened.
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[ Emotions are tricky things, after all, and it's only years and years of having to suppress his own that allows him to keep as smooth a veneer as he does. He doesn't have much of a heart left to speak of, and pride isn't something he has, either. ]
If you want him to be a rival or an enemy and nothing else, make up your mind that's all he'll ever be to you. If something about his attention actually appeals to you, decide on boundaries and enforce them.
If you can't make up your mind, he'll continue to dictate the terms of your interactions.
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[ he looks serious. You make it sound so easy??? ] How exactly am I enforcing them if I can't kick the shit out of him? [ you really need to also put on the child word filter for this explanation because the whole concept still sounds so stupid to him that it's actually a thing. He's seriously waving between wanting to laugh and just go bang his head on a wall under his expression. ]
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He's playing a mind game with you. Even if you fought him to a standstill, it wouldn't make much of a difference if he could still drag you down and take what he wanted after.
[ Which is the crux of the matter, really. ]
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[ not that he ... knows that or anything from experience. ] shameless trashy foreigner...
[ anyway... ] Can you tell me about those chains and that Gate of his?
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The Gate of Babylon is the storehouse of all the treasures Gilgamesh collected in his lifetime. It is the repository of all human knowledge and contains the originals of each and every weapon that would eventually be owned by heroes in latter eras. He is considered the most powerful among us for the simple fact that he possesses such a vast arsenal.
[ As for the chains...well... He tilts his head slightly. ]
If the chains you refer to are what I think they are, they're called the Chains of Enkidu. They're designed to hold divine beings -- the stronger the divinity, the more tightly the target is bound.
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Makes sense... He'll always have another no matter what's done. And he has really incredibly control over it, I'll give him that much.
That chain, though... it sounds really problematic. I've seen it once but it sounds like the same thing.
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The Gate itself is problematic enough if you lack the means to counter it, but there is another blade he keeps inside that is more powerful than all of the rest combined.
The chains would be the least of your worries if he ever decided to use it.
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[ Stupid gate. ]
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[ Ah, the bluntness. Don't you love it? ]
As I've said -- fighting him head-on without a means of countering the Gate is a fool's errand. It's offensive as much as it is defensive, and he isn't especially skilled at melee combat if you can get close.
[ That's the hard part. ]
If you're interested in training and attempting to push beyond your current limits, I might be able to assist you.
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If you think you can help, I'll take it. Even just getting more skill knowledge in reference to it would be worth the time.
[ not like he has a country to conquer here or by thing so really... All the time in the world. ]
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I told you I'd show you my duel-wielding, didn't I?
[ He hasn't forgotten, even after everything that's happened. ]
I have a few other tricks up my sleeve, but that's the one I think you wanted to see.
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Masamune grins, however, at the mention of dual wielding. A small laugh. ]
You're the first dual wielder I've met here. Of course I want to see it... first, at least!
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[ It could be today. It could be tomorrow. Though he has no pride to speak of as a hero or otherwise, the other's enthusiasm seems to be slightly contagious. ]
You can be the first to see it here, if that's what you want.