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riza hawkeye. ([personal profile] strictdiscipline) wrote in [community profile] epidemiology2016-10-31 09:42 pm

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CHARACTERS: Riza and friends! ("""friends""")
DATE: Post-Ghost town log
WARNINGS: Talk of death?? Probably some throwing up too, we’ll see.
SUMMARY: Riza died and that was fun but now she has to talk about it and that’s less fun. A bunch of starters in the comments, give me a holler if you'd like something.
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[personal profile] riastraid 2016-11-08 05:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[ There's no way he—that anyone—could grant that in full. That life had ended. She'd died, and it's natural to be confused, left to make sense of something where nothing should be.

He looks on quietly for lack of an answer, a plaintive silence falling in. Comfort was a tricky card to play when he'd learned his hand from other warriors. But Riza's wearied, looking small under her bundled sheet, and he wants to help her rest. After a moment, ]


Why? [ At the very least, he can be a sounding board. ] Sounds like you've got plenty to live for.

[ A certain photo in her room comes to mind. When it came to Riza's future, it always inevitably did. ]
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[personal profile] riastraid 2016-11-13 10:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He's quiet throughout her explanation, not the one filling the air with noise for once. No way can he meet that laugh with anything but silence. In the interim, he considers reaching out for her face, not letting her hide behind her bangs, but his hands stay still at his sides. When times are hardest (and from the sounds of it, her life's taken very, very hard turns), people need to manage on their own two feet.

He speaks as calmly as he can manage instead, though there's still some coarse, low emotion to it. ]


What the hell happened back there, Riza?

[ There had been signs of cracks—her ruined tattoo the most glaring—but he doesn't know much. And sometimes, a healthy respect for privacy isn't what someone needs most. If he can ask for her trust, if he's earned it in any capacity, let him pry this once. ]
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[personal profile] riastraid 2016-11-14 02:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ Well, she doesn't blow him off. She could've. It's progress, and it's best to go forward from here. He looks straight back at her, no bright curiosity in his eyes. He hadn't asked to sate his own snoopiness. ]

Night's still young.

[ He hops down from where he's taken roost, sitting on the terrace flooring instead with an upwards, expectant glance to her to join him. They may as well settle in. ]
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shh ur good

[personal profile] riastraid 2016-11-15 11:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ The free-floating things he'd known about her—her scars, the genocide, the picture of her friends and not her family—finally come together in context. 'If you had been a liability, I would have killed you,' she'd said to him once. It makes sense. And so does the fear of going back to that moment. Not just to die, but to pull the trigger on a good dream and its dreamer—one she clearly loved in some measure of the word, unsaid or not.

He tenses, anger at her circumstances steaming with nowhere to vent. That and sympathy, a flare of raw, nameless feeling... it all leaves him strangely restless, wired with emotion and poorly equipped to deal with it. His brow crinkles. ]


If this Roy guy's being an idiot, you've still got work to do.

[ Whether it's to talk him down, or to fulfill her promise, wherever that leaves her. He frowns, emphatic and already failing miserably at the soft comfort he'd told himself to try. ]

You really don't think there's a point to going back? That dying here means you're free to break your promise—? Gimme a break. Cry and rest now if you gotta, but you know that's not true—you're not some powerless waif 'cause of this. [ He runs a hand through his hair, grumbling out something that sounds suspiciously like 'shit' and glaring at a cactus. Caring sucks. This is the worst. His tone is prickly, but not at all cold. ]

Don't sound so ready to give up on yourself.

[ Or him. (Even if it is some other man.) Stumbling is fine, and hurting is only human, but to genuinely and wholly lose faith in herself or his cause could be crippling. She's stronger than that. ]
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waits 2 days to read this

[personal profile] riastraid 2016-11-21 08:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ Riza takes it more gracefully than his execution probably deserved, strong despite the way she curls in on herself. His irritation simmers as quickly as it flared up, though it's a hollow 'victory.' However well they knew the world—that life's fucked up, a constant lesson in hard knocks—it still stings to watch it in action. To see someone so wronged and having to rail on them to keep enduring... it isn't fair. The tense lines of his jaw relax again, but it still aches, teeth having clenched too tight, fingers circled taut into fists.

And it boils down simply: someone he cares for is in pain, and he isn't heartless. He's furious for her. (And something less barefaced than anger, quieter and no less cutting.) But secondhand hurt doesn't do any good. Soon, he laughs too, harsh and nearly soundless. ]


Quit thanking me—that sucked. [ She'd said so herself. He adds, more wearily, softer, ] And don't apologize.

[ Sapped of anger, the winter wind finally has room to settle in. He shivers pathetically before he rocks gently to his side, nudging her shoulder with his. ]

...You got room for one more under there?

[ It's cold. Blanket looks roomy. He's tired of not sitting by her in earnest. ]
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[personal profile] riastraid 2016-11-24 07:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ The blanket's still warm from where it's clung to her for the past however long—they'd been out there a while. Probably better to hurry her back inside, drained as she's been after her death, but she's got a tight grip on the covers, heat trapped beneath. Besides, her cheek's wet against his arm and he doesn't have the heart to shoo her, wasting no time to catch her fingers between his.

That doesn't change when she finally speaks, though his thumb strokes against hers, distracted. Ordinarily, he keeps his stories to himself. The tales before his time were fine: sweet retellings of war, Ulster's sweeping, shining plains that seemed to ripple under a strong breeze, the jagged cliffs that dive straight into the ocean. Even his identity isn't anything to be overly cautious of—it just wasn't worth dredging up. It was... dull to think about.

But what good's a hero's life if not to lift spirits? (A cautionary tale. He'll skip those bits.) It only takes a moment's consideration. ]


Sure.

[ It's the least he could do for someone who'd shared so openly with him (someone obviously in need of a distraction). He summons up a smile, forced at first, but easily held. ]

I guess I'll start from the beginning.

[ The story where he'd earned his warrior's name: Cu Chulainn. Lighthearted vignettes from childhood amongst brash knights and their brasher sons. Questing forth from the Land of Shadows with Scathach and Ferdiad, his battles against Clan Calatin, the grandiose tales of a boy who earned his legend through combat.

Even skirting around the bleaker memories, there's plenty to choose from. He'd had a full life. However much time they need to pass for her to finally fall asleep, he fills with stories. ]