and if you close your eyes, does it almost feel like nothing changed at all?

[assent]

CHARACTERS: Sonia Nevermind, and assorted others!
DATE: January 6th - 31st
WARNINGS: SPOILERS for Danganronpa 2 are heavy in here, but I will mark individual threads for it. Also cw things for violence
SUMMARY: Just putting all my log plans for this month in here! If you want to do something just drop a prompt, hit me up at serves to work something out or there are 2 open prompts inside!

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[weatherscience]

[ lightly, Nami leans her head on Sonia's, never letting go of her hands even as she listens to her friend continue on. it seems there was more weighing on her mind. ]

Of course. What is it that's making you feel unsure?

[assent]

[ Her eyes flutter when she feels Nami lean back and she sighs faintly. ]

I am unsure of if I made a mistake or not... back at the ball. You are aware of that strange blind date match that happened, no?

[weatherscience]

Mm, I remember that. You went with Lance-kun, didn't you?

[ she remembers seeing them together before she and Sonia went off to the ice maze. ]

What happened?

[assent]

[ Hopefully Nami can't see it from this angle, but her face definitely heats up at that. ]

I did something, that I am not sure was the right thing to do. [ She pauses, trying to say it properly. ]

All evening I took some of the plants from around the castle, as keepsakes... Then when he walked me back to my room I used the one that you cannot leave without a kiss, because I thought... is that not how a date should end? And it was nice but... he acted so strangely afterwards that I am not sure whether I should have done it that way or at all or...

[ She's too clueless with all of this. ]

[weatherscience]

[ she doesn't rush the explanation, instead waiting carefully for Sonia to speak, to give the full account of what happened before saying anything. ]

I see... [ yeah, she definitely gets it. ]

Sonia-chan — I think I know why you feel uncertain. You did it because you thought you should, right? But what you should have done... was what you wanted. Traditions don't matter!! All that's important is that you do what you want to do. Was it something you wanted? Then, it was the right thing. But if you only did it because you thought it was expected, and used a plant to force it to happen... then, weren't you lying to both Lance-kun and yourself?

[ she pauses... and smiles. ] If there's something you want to do, just go ahead and do it!

[assent]

Not necessarily what I should either, I think it was more what I expected should happen. It always happened in the dramas I watched, so I thought... perhaps it was what was right? [ She pauses to flick the water gently, watching the ripples spread out. ]

I am not really sure of what I want. I have never had much of a choice before.

[weatherscience]

Then...

[ she lifts her head up so she can look at Sonia better. ]

You shouldn't allow anything you've watched or heard of dictate what you do. Take your time to see what it is you want... I know it can be hard, when you're not used to having the choice, but wasting the opportunity to learn your own wishes would be almost as bad as not having the chance at all.

[assent]

[ She lets her this time, though she looks guilty when Nami catches her eye. ]

For a very long time I had to put my country first, so I automatically default to what I should do as a princess. If I do not have things I've watched or read to follow then will I not cause more problems?

[weatherscience]

Mm, I understand. It is difficult, to let go of the ways you've trained yourself to think with... but it's possible. Sonia-chan — this is your chance to think of yourself, first of all.

[ she smiles encouragingly. ] Even if you cause a problem... isn't it better to deal with it as it happens, and then learn from it? If you make your own mistakes... then at least they're still yours, ones you can fix later.

[assent]

So do you think I should talk to him about what happened? Apologise, maybe? [ She hasn't really had to apologise for anything before, but this feels as though she might have been a bit selfish. ]

Everything else is not as complicated I think. He said I had not needed to use the plant at all, but then he acted really strangely after and I may have made things worse. That is not what I wanted.

[ itt: Sonia has no idea about how these things work smh ]

[weatherscience]

If you feel the need for it. Maybe... explain why you did what you did? I'm sure Lance-kun will understand.

[ why does she have the urge to pat Sonia on the head..... ]

[assent]

I hope so... he has been a very good friend. [ Is this him being friendzoned from afar... who knows. ] I would not want to lose that.

[weatherscience]

[ ah........ such is the Lance life!! ]

You won't. I can't imagine anyone wouldn't want to be friends with you, Sonia-chan... I know I'm glad that we're friends, and no matter what wouldn't wish to lose that! And if my talk with him is any indication... I'm sure he feels the same.

[assent]

[ It's so IC it hurts... ]

I hope not... but if you are that confident I will talk to him later this week. [ Her hand moves to squeeze Nami's, and she smiles up at her. ] Thank you.

[weatherscience]

You're welcome! You know you can always talk to me about anything you need... I'll be happy to listen and help, if I can.

[ she squeezes her hand back, smiling brightly, glad that despite the heavy topics... Sonia can still smile like this. ]

[assent]

It is the same for you too...! [ She says it more loudly than she intends to, wanting to offer the same kindness Nami is giving to her. ]

I just would wish for you to know that it goes both ways, in that case.