No, it is... not that I did not want it I was just. [ She pauses. ] It hurt, I suppose. Perhaps I was just being selfish, but it does not matter now.

[ Though he keeps talking after, and she obviously made a mistake of actually looking at him before as her expression starts to crumble a little. There's a lot of meaning that comes from that for her, and it's something he might understand in how much guilt both of them carry with them for their own situations. He should know that she wanted to do well to try and make up for her own shortcomings at home. Here, she's managed to make a difference.

That means a lot. ]

I-- [ She tries very hard to keep a straight face, but her lips are twitching into a watery smile. ] --would like that.