wardance: now she wants me to be honest and reconnect with my son. (♯i'm dating this Christian girl right)
『伊達政宗』 ᴅᴀᴛᴇ "LET ME DO IT KOJURO" ᴍᴀsᴀᴍᴜɴᴇ ([personal profile] wardance) wrote in [community profile] epidemiology2016-06-12 11:45 pm

• closed • the truth of letting go lies in the answer

who Masamune [personal profile] wardance & Sieglinde [personal profile] grunehexe
what serious life changing decisions and requests are being made.
when forward dated to after the Recollection Festivities have concluded.
where In Residence (Oska)
warnings bad mothers mentioned and some squicky bone breaking of a 12-year-old's feet ;;




[ Although he has spent plenty of time socializing already, Masamune has also spent more time than what most here who know him to have ever done silent and by himself. The library has been an unlikely background to see the young warlord in, but following the end of the end of the recollection ceremony, Masamune has spent a lot of his time flipping through bound pages.

Now, back in his room, he has brought that atmosphere with him to a chair, wearing more modern casual attire, a white dog loyally resting by his feet. For Sieglinde, the door is always unlocked and doesn't require or expect a knock (although manners would help....). He glances up over his the top of his book curiously when he hears it open, the white dog's ears twitching curiously as it raises its head to greet the newest company to join them, tail already wagging.
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[personal profile] sengetsu 2016-06-24 08:32 pm (UTC)(link)

[One of the many things about Matsunaga that made him so damned irritating was that there was always a kernel of truth in his lies. And this one has been sitting in the back of his mind since Masamune relayed the conversation to him, all those months ago. Removed from the daily spectre of war, from the responsibilities of ruling... he had wanted to believe it hadn't changed Masamune at all, but perhaps he had been too hopeful.

Not that he had room to judge. He'd gotten soft, too, with the weeks spent in Nalawi. Focusing on crops and building rather than fighting. He'd practiced some, of course, but without Masamune there, it had been too easy to let other matters take his attention. It's a disservice to both of them, and he feels slightly ashamed of it.]

Tomorrow after breakfast, we'll making an offering for you father. And then spar some. [better to try and do what he can to start fixing things, rather than simply wallowing]

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[personal profile] sengetsu 2016-06-26 04:02 am (UTC)(link)

[Kojuro releases his old on Masamune's shoulders, though he stays close - he's still concerned, which is clear in his expression.]

I don't have any - just supplies for tea. [and he's damned thankful for that right now. With the mood Masamune is in, alcohol is a terrible idea]

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[personal profile] sengetsu 2016-06-27 12:56 am (UTC)(link)

[That does actually get Kojuro to move, shifting to stand in front of the door.]

Masamune-sama, I can't advise that.

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[personal profile] sengetsu 2016-06-27 05:33 am (UTC)(link)

[Kojuro resists the urge to point out an apology given under duress isn't worth much - he's still angry at Masamune, but right now it's overwhelmed by worry. It's been a long time seen he's truly seen one of Masamune's black moods, but he hasn't forgotten how destructive they can be. The toll it takes on him and everyone around him.]

I can't sit by and watch you hurt yourself like this.

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[personal profile] sengetsu 2016-06-28 05:01 am (UTC)(link)

[Kojuro hates having to say this aloud - but while he knows Masamune knows this as well as he does, he's clearly not going to drop the issue.]

You lose control of your temper, and it poisons you and everyone around you. [He's not any better himself - it's one of the reasons he doesn't have alcohol in his rooms. In celebration, or a quiet evening? That's one thing. But it only makes bad moods worse, and he knows Masamune will regret it after]

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[personal profile] sengetsu 2016-06-28 06:02 am (UTC)(link)

[Kojuro doesn't move - as much as his heart is crying out to give Masamune what he wants, try to make him happy right now... in the long run, it'll only make things worse. And if Masamune can't be strong in this moment, he has to be instead, for both of them]

I'll stay with you until you sleep, If you need company.

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[personal profile] sengetsu 2016-07-02 04:49 am (UTC)(link)

[Kojuro wraps his arms around Masamune, holding him close. It's a little more awkward now, compared to when they were younger - Masamune nearly caught up to him in height in his teenage years - but something about it just feels... right. He has too many answers for Masamune's questions, enough that they all stick in his throat and none of them come out. He wants to say that he'll always trust Masamune - even when they fight, when they get angry with each other, when they disagree - because Masamune is the one who gave his life purpose, gave him a reason to get up in the morning. It's not something he can put into words, so he's always shown it through his actions, instead.

Which makes dealing with this situation all the more difficult for him. There isn't something he can do to make this all right again.] You will always be able to trust me - I promise. [And he'd rather die than break that promise] As for everyone else - they should not expect to be trusted or respected if they break their word, or turn away when they are needed. But you can't isolate yourself completely from other people, either.

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[personal profile] sengetsu 2016-07-15 03:21 am (UTC)(link)

[Kojuro lets them both down to the floor, as carefully as he can given the weight of them both. He knows that despite his forceful personality, Masamune is particularly sensitive to feeling abandoned, and Kojuro has no magic words that can fix the hurts done to him, recently or in the distant past. He only has himself to offer, and a prayer that it is enough - and right now, that's a hard thing to believe in. But he holds him close anyway, and hopes, because he knows Masamune is strong enough for this if he puts his will to it.

When Masamune finally falls asleep, Kojuro takes off his outerwear and tucks him into his own bed. It's not the first time he's done this, and it almost certainly won't be the last, either.]